bagel.

highlight of my day :

I FOUND A BAGEL IN MY LITTLE COUNTRY !

that might sound strange to all the us & gb people,

but i m honest, i ve never seen a bagel here in Luxembourg before, and believe me i ve looked everywhere !

so lunch was probably the second time in my life that i ate/saw a real bagel,

 and let me tell you it was AMAZING !

oh and it was not a "normal" ,boring,plain,white bagel NO it was a wonderful tasty multi grain one !

yes sometimes i don't need much to be in a good mood ;)

voilà and here is a picture of my love of the day :

oh,by the way if anyone knows a place in Luxembourg where i can get them i would be MORE than welcome to here it,or maybe an easy bagel recipe so that i can make them myself?:)

on top of all this,i could enjoy it sitting in the sun as we had the first "real" spring day of the year,sunny..blue sky...perfect day:)

easter.

easterbreakfast.

life...

is too short. You'll be an old woman before you know it.  

first of all: sorry for my long absence. during those last 

months i had a hard relapse,and none of my days was 

blog-worth . some things went bad in my life,and so

i took the easy escape: my ed...from one day to the 

other i isolated myself again in my "safe" bubble,

disconnected to the real world. my ed makes me forget 

all my problems... for a very short time...and then they 

are all back and even worse ...vicious circle... 

so i ve spent the last months mostly alone at home, 

hiding from the real world, jealously watching  

my friends,my family having great times.  

i ve realised how short our lives and most of all

our youth are. this last years i ve spent my time 

in hospitals, centres, at doctors or alone at home . 

i ve completely missed my teenage years, the ones 

you are supposed to be the happiest.  

why? because i am unable to start to live and  

leave the ed behind me... 

but life is too short,i ve already missed so much,

i ve so many plans, there are so many new things 

i ve to explore and i won't let my ed destroy my life... 

and the life of my family who i see suffering so much  

maybe it's the spring ,symbol of the rebirth that  

makes me be hopefully again? ;) anyway this time 

i really wanna fight, and try my hardest to 

"beat the beast"... and amazingly this last days 

have already been much much better. 

although i m still very confused about what and  

how much to eat...i ve no idea of portions,of  

how many calories i REALLY need... 

and i couldn't get a n.appointment before for JUNE! (grmpf :/ )  

so far i try to inspire on all you many wonderful  

bloggers ,your tips are always welcome :) 

i leave you with a little video (no foodie pic today  

but i promise i ll start doing them again tomorrow, 

as that motivates me even more to eat accurately )  

and send you all a lot of spring power :)  

and never forget,life is too short to be wasted like that!

*

i don't need enemies...

guten morgen liebe sorgen...

1) add to yesterdays post:

dinner: portabella stuffed with vegetables & cheeseeee

breakfast:(my new) overnight granola & soymilk & 

fage greek yog & COCONUTMILK, frozen persimmon (<3)>

pome granat

very tasty granola,and gluten free (that might intrest some people :) )

lunch : ww spaghetti, yellowp. & carrot &coconut sauce, 

crumbled leftovers from the lentil-burgers

snack: self-made bar : oats,peer+applesauce,nuts,driedfruits,cinn.,

van.,coconutmilk >oven

topped with this AMAZINNNNNG monki NUTBUTTER I bought some 

days ago hazelnut&raisins  (unfortunately i couldn't find a pic of 

it on the internet,so you have that pic and you have to 

imagine the raisins ;) )

:) 

2)new food

 

dinner: M.E.'s  tarte flambée (cornwrap+ :D-cowcheese +ypepper 

+apple slices & germs...

 

morning:  CARROTOATTTTTTS

divine :)

(oats&wheatbran&newgranola &spices &raisins >cooked, take away from the hotplate, put in coconutmilk &carrots&almonds & AND of course the wonderful raisinhazelnutbutter:) )

special thx to E. & M. :) <3

 

snack : new bars i found :)  keiko greenkiss matchatea apripan  and one with just apripan(dried apricots ;) )

 

dessert:  fastest,easiest,healthy,tasty....coco-apple-pear-hazelnut cake :)

ryvita dark wholegrain rye (but you can take anything you want,oats,granola,cookies crumbled....)

+coconutmilk +soya  (or yoghurt,... )

+apple/pearsauce (again just choose what you like most,sliced fruits are also great,and jam...)

+raisins & nutbutter

> fridge ..magical: the texture becomes really cakelike :)

3) i don't feel good at all this last days

my whole body aches,i feel so weak&tired,and my bloodpressure is ways to low &sick,headache...

all i wanna do is stay at home,alone, in my bed.

yesterday i didn't even leave my apartment...it 's so exhausting to walk & to face the cold,i didn't had enough courage :(

one of my only friends (i don't have many friends left,thank you ed...)

worries a lot about me,so she wants me to go visit a city not far from where i live. 

it sounds like so much fun,an would really love to go with her,but i feel again so tired and exhausted,and i gonna have to eat with her for lunch,i gonna have to eat outside... and so the whole time i think about writing her that i have a flu and can't go with her...

that's so silly...i could have a great day,but my ed is destroying it.

i don't need enemies,i m my biggest enemy..

well i gonna take a shower now,hope that will make me feel better and than i will hopefully go with her to that city,and have a great great day.

we gonna leave in some hours,and be back tonight, than i will hopefully be able to show you pics of the trip :)

i wish you all a wonderful saturday:)

friday i have monday on my mind.

hello lovely readers :)

thank you so much for all your nice comments :)

so,as i have an appointment pretty soon i just 

gonna post my new pic,the explanations

 gonna follow tonight ;)

dinner.

breakfast. (inspired by 2 lovely girls: M&E

lunch.

snacksnack.

tarrytown!

oh i m so exited!

there are BIG chances i ll spend one month 

during summer in tarrytown,language exchange 

program.  this sounds so unbelievable ,i m just 

too happy :) and got one more reason to 

RECOVER.

so know it's your turn dear readers,

tell me everything you know about tarrytown ?;)

i really can't wait for the summer ,

but it seems so far away as right now 

looking out of y window everything is 

white and snowy :/

i m really not a winterperson

well i like to "watch" the winter,wintersport,

but: it's to cold for me.

i m always freezing,even in summer,so during 

wintermonths, it's really hard,as most of the 

time we have like 23 f...which kind of paralyses 

me and makes it difficult to go outside.

winter=cold=home=missingwalks=boring=headaches....

thank you very much e.d. for making me such a

"chilblain" :(

oh but it has one positive side,

i ve plenty time to cook :

1) dinner:pastelsalad.

(quorn.apple.avocado.quinoa.wheat(ebly).redrice.salad.cashews )

right before falling asleep,i suddenly had pictures of great meals in my head,couldn't wait to get up ;)

well as usual i was up at 4(:/)

an pretty soon i started cooking:

2)the best oatmeal i ve ever had!a day started with this ,can only become a good day :)

banana.coco.cashew.creamcheese.choco.oats.

heaven.

(and (too) many cups of cinnamon&vanilla coffee )

3)lunch:as i had plenty time,i decided to create my first veggiburger,as i didn't find a good recipe,i made some freestyling haha :)

but i m quiet happy about the result 

curry.coco.redlentil.raisin.date.quorn.oat.cin.honey.burger.

&bread"chips" (grainbread+currypeppersalt+oven+rollingpin)

&coco.cin.guacamole

(mycurry spice mix recipe will be post 2morrow not enough time left;)

(and a nice cup of ginger&citron tea)

4) unfortunately i was still very early,so i tried an other new thing:larabar

ever since i read f-blogs i m so jealous to see people eating larabars.in my country they don't sale anything like that,and i would almost take a plain to make a trip to the u.s. just to try one of this bars haha :) 

one day i m gonna marry a multimillionaire ;) 

but until then i tried to come up with my own larabars :

dattle.raisin.almonds.cashew.apple.cin&van.cashewbutter

first i tried to blend it all in my mixer,but he didn't survive it haha,so i just mashed it with a fork after:

-heating the raisins&dates with water in the micro.

-shredding apple ,an with paper/towel trying to get the most juice out of it (don't throw it away,this juice is absolutely delicious :) )

mixed all of it & formed a bar >fridge

and oh this was so good,like apple.cin.xmas.nut cake :)

unfortunately i m not able to tell you if it tastes like the real larabars haha :) but it tastes as i imagine lbars taste ;)

it's gonna be hard to top that tonight haha

it's so strange to read this,some weeks ago i had never even dreamed of eating like this,to be honest yesterday was the first time i had avocado since years! my main problem : fat...i m still not able to use oil,butter ...it's just so difficult for me to "waste" those calories in something that doesn't brings me much satisfaction/taste,for me the difference between oil-free or oily vegetables for instance isn't worth the calories :/

therefor i try to eat plenty nuts ,which i love,to give my body at least some fats.

but now i m off to have coffee with a friend in a very small coffeehouse in my city.it's so cosy,at the inside it looks just like a livingroom,even little cheesy , the coffee is amazing & best of all: there are only (very lovely/hot) boys working,which are always in the mood for some chitchatting :)

maybe i m gonna make a pic ,as i believe my descriptions aren't very clear ;)

i wish you all a tasty day,tomorrow is finally friday,almost weekend :)

looking forward to the weekend.

aloha.

hmm let's start with a little gift for you ;)

checking out jealously the quakers products available in the U.s.

 (we just have the very simple oats :( no larabars,1 brand 

nut-butters,no cliff bars,no TJ,no flav.oikos,only 1 cottcheese.....

(i should move!)

well i found this on their website:

http://www.quakeroats.com/cooking-and-recipes/content/quaker-instant-oats.aspx

big gallery AND you can create your own crazy oatmeal haha :)

so now from the virtual food to the ehm...slightly more real food :

breakfast : 

actually i had prepared a very nice bowl of "overnight.oats.bircherstyle. "

but this morning,i decided to be spontaneous,so i walk over to the fridge,

took one egg-white,mixed it in my oats and chased them to the oven :)

> flavorful amazing oatmeal ,the texture is very different if you let the 

oats soak before heating them.

(oats & flaxseed & 1apple(shr.) & 0.5banana(mash) & nut+driedfruitmedley 

& soymilk(+h2o) & cinvan & eggw)

right after the picture: switched the GIANT pancake into a bowl,i don't 

know why,but i always prefer to eat out of bowls rather then on plates,

i even cut my sandwiches in pieces and put them in a bowl to eat them 

with a spoon haha :)

dinner last night,made in a rush as i was very hungry...

fastvegchilly(can.tomatoes,black beans,ypepperchills,CHILLLLI,carrot&feta )

+ "breadchips" + carrot,raisin,cashew,cinnamon,ojuice,iceberg salad

 

and last but not least : todays lunch

aka. grainbread+laugh.cowchees+beans+ypepper+tomatoes >oven baked

&     carrot+ginger+cinnamon+raisins+soymilk+almonds  > "puree"

all top with tons of white pepper :)

again i m having such a bad headache,and i am awake since 3...:/

but my morning was very nice AS i took a class in a new yogaclub

so far i might have done yoga like 3 times in my life,but i though 

it would be a good idea to take some lessons,this might help to 

feel better ,to be more aware of my body,his needs,

to "distress" ,find an inner balance..less sleep troubles,

more zen...blablabla ;)

in fact it was really nice,i was impressed by the passion the 

instructor had for his work

it was really contagious !

nice thing 2 : there were no mirrors...i remember my old ballet 

lessons,seeing myself wherever i looked...

it's so much better/healthier to listen to your body from the inside,

instead of  judging it by a fake reflection.

so i m gonna return to this course and hope that i will find my inner

balance haha :)

what about you?

yoga?when yes,has it helped you?

facing the same bowlphenomen aka. platephobia? ;)