first of all: sorry for my long absence. during those last
months i had a hard relapse,and none of my days was
blog-worth . some things went bad in my life,and so
i took the easy escape: my ed...from one day to the
other i isolated myself again in my "safe" bubble,
disconnected to the real world. my ed makes me forget
all my problems... for a very short time...and then they
are all back and even worse ...vicious circle...
so i ve spent the last months mostly alone at home,
hiding from the real world, jealously watching
my friends,my family having great times.
i ve realised how short our lives and most of all
our youth are. this last years i ve spent my time
in hospitals, centres, at doctors or alone at home .
i ve completely missed my teenage years, the ones
you are supposed to be the happiest.
why? because i am unable to start to live and
leave the ed behind me...
but life is too short,i ve already missed so much,
i ve so many plans, there are so many new things
i ve to explore and i won't let my ed destroy my life...
and the life of my family who i see suffering so much
maybe it's the spring ,symbol of the rebirth that
makes me be hopefully again? ;) anyway this time
i really wanna fight, and try my hardest to
"beat the beast"... and amazingly this last days
have already been much much better.
although i m still very confused about what and
how much to eat...i ve no idea of portions,of
how many calories i REALLY need...
and i couldn't get a n.appointment before for JUNE! (grmpf :/ )
so far i try to inspire on all you many wonderful
bloggers ,your tips are always welcome :)
i leave you with a little video (no foodie pic today
but i promise i ll start doing them again tomorrow,
as that motivates me even more to eat accurately )
and send you all a lot of spring power :)
and never forget,life is too short to be wasted like that!