new week,new hope.

hello strangers

hope you had a nice start into the week?

my monday's are always pretty much the same

get up with tons of aims &resolutions i wanna achiev

, my breakfasts are great,i m really optimistic...but as

the day goes by,the thoughts and fears come back.

the more i try to understand myself,my ed,my fears,the less i do.

i m takling to myself,argue with my self,i can clearly see how ridicilous my acting is

but nevertheless it s so hard to stop it

i would spend a lot to be able to shut of this voice in my head just for one second

and finally be able to enjoy life again,to live free light hearted,and most of all

TO BE HAPPY

i still got hope...

besides brooding all day ,i went to university (i m studing art (graphic design.fashion design...)),

had a nice walk (waaaaays to cold outside :/ )

did some grocery shopping

and of course some coooooking :

my day started with this wonderful bowl of oats

(oat cooked with soy milk, yoghurt, bananas, ,selfmade crispgranola ( oats,almonds,pecan,cashew + honey >baked)

delicious.

lunch : ehm let's call it spinach&potatoes tower ;)

dinnnnner: shredded carrot + cashewbutter on muesli (raisinsnutoatww) bread

and some snacks (nopic)

quick look at my sunday-eats:

breaki: oatmeal (with soymilk), dried figs,dattles,cashewnuts,peenut&cashew nbutter ,flaxseed

lunch :quorn,carrot,soba noodles + tons of chilly :)

diner: ugly but TASTY (half empty) BREAD salad

bread,tofu,chickpeas,carrot with peanut sauce

voilà,thats all for tonight as i m really really tired and don't wanna fall asleep on my keyboard :)

best. M.E.